This week has been an exhausting one - physically, and especially, emotionally! Monday I attented/helped with guests at a memorial service for a 14 year old young man from our church.
Tuesday, those of us who are Stephen Ministers met with a Ministry leadership group to process our feelings and also, most importantly, to process how we can help the mom (who is attending Stephen Ministry training). It was an incredible blessing to participate in the session with a group of individuals with whom I could be authentic and honest about my feelings--and I know the others shared that opinion as well.
Wednesday night I had already scheduled to meet with my Care Receiver. I was so tired and worn out, that I spent the entire day barely hanging on in order to have the strength and energy to be present for my care receiver. I won't say I dreaded the meeting but was feeling pretty zapped. In the end, I was so blessed to have the opportunity to minister to my friend. I actually ended up feeling refreshed and renewed. It is truly a blessing to be a blessing to others.
Today I felt rested and somewhat uplifted. It has been a gorgeous day, temperate and sunny. I never cease to be amazed by God's beauty. I also, though, never cease to question His will, His plans for each of us. Why does one child, gravely ill and at death's door make a full recovery, and another die suddenly. What is the lesson? Where is the purpose?
I don't believe these "random" events are random. I do believe God is in control and has a divine and glorious purpose for every experience we have. Not understanding His plan doesn't make me trust and believe any less. Strangley, I find myself clinging even more tightly to His promises--to the truth of Jesus Christ.
For me, it is the only option--to trust and believe--even though I don't understand.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" (Jeremiah 29:11 NIV).
Blessings on your journey,